So, I have always thought reading what other people have to say in blogs was cool and i always kind of toyed with the idea of making my own but never really took the time. But, now i find my self in just the right state of mind to put what I have to say on the interweb for all those who care enough to read. I guess I'm doing this as a means of venting, getting stuff out of my system. I feel like it will be cathartic to get some of the thoughts and feelings in my brain out of my skull and on to something more tangible. But since it is my blog it may be depressing at times, it may be stupid at times but hopefully it will be rad. I have no doubt it will be chock full of grammatical errors but please dont think I'm a dummy just because I can't spell half the words i can say. Now that i think about it I'm not sure why i even wrote this entire precursor/explanation. I dont have to justify my blogging to any of you. I just wanted to get some shit off my chest....
Life recently has been nothing short of complicated. The band stuff is as fun as ever though i feel it has an expiration date. Like death is lurking around every corner ready to bring his swift scythe down on Joe Grizzley's neck at any time. Death, in this case, goes by the name of "Growing Up" or "Responsibility" for short. Call him what you will but just because we grow up that doesn't mean we cant still pursue our passions right? I hope not.
School wise, I just failed spanish and that has caused a fuck ton of problems for me. Letting my parents down, realizing a I'm a lazy apathetic fuck, the kind of problems that suck both physically and down the the core of you goddamn soul. It's amazing how one F in a class can send you on a self deprecating spiral. I'm not even doing that awful in school but i guess just as a person it's time for me to step up my game and do work. Regardless it still sucks being a let down.
I got a girlfriend and she rules so fucking hard. We've been going out for about a month but i swear something feels different about this relationship in a a very good way. Nothing was rushed. We did things on our own time. It all felt/feels very organic. Shes beautiful, has rad taste in music(except for the acacia strain...gross), she enjoys making me happy. She's fucking awesome, love her to death. Right now at this very moment it seems like she's the only good thing i got going for me and i would dare not fuck it up.
Its weird that being in such a "blah" mood would lead one to write a blog. I'm not sure what the appeal is to putting your self out there on the internet is. I guess one could do it to see if anyone feels the way they feel, to make a connection with others. Maybe for sympathy or pity. Maybe some do it simply just to do it or because they are literary masters and want to be the next Perez Hilton. Maybe I'm doing it for all or none of those reasons. Regardless this felt good.
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